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The Lost Weekend

by Luke Frees

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1.
We’re walking back as the sky grows dark I’m feeling older but the park still looks the same Like a snapshot in a frame You can read me like an open book Careful with the pages, I’m as frail as I look, you know From the cold electric rain Falling fast always scared me to death Will I do it again or will the spark just slowly fade? Will I blow out the flame I’ve seen it happen many times before An insecure mind can’t expect much more, oh no From the cold electric rain But something tells me that you care And you must’ve caught me as I came up for air So I think it’s worth the chance I see it when our thoughts collide Everyone’s gone home but you and I remain For once I know what to say I see it when I talk to you Under this umbrella where there’s room for two to escape The cold electric rain
2.
“They aren’t long, the days of wine and roses,” I always tell myself, “With every door that opens, another closes.” But every wind feels like Someone’s breathing down my neck. So I I try to live in the moment before it’s gone When they open their mouths to speak, I try to listen better than I have before But there’s a distance between us growing like a chasm’s split the floor And I know next year They won’t be here, but even if they stayed it wouldn’t be the same So let me ask: am I just letting go? Is falling out of touch better than being left out in the snow? Doesn’t mean I care less cuz we both did our best I think I’m just letting go Remember those cool spring nights on the roof Mr. Tillman playing to the view? High, above the Boston skyline, We serenaded the city through June But before too long, those days felt numbered and then were gone Gone when the seasons shifted (repeat chorus) And no, I don’t blame them for moving on Is the pain of the leaving even worth them being gone? Or will I just regret not drinking the chalice of yesterday’s wine? (repeat chorus)
3.
Dear Grace 03:59
Dear Grace It’s Christmas Eve, 1943 We’re staying in a building tonight It’s really not that bad, the boys and me always laugh At the letters our mothers will write But how are the kids? Did they get my gifts? Have the trees in Nebraska gone white? Seeing the moon, I’ll write again soon, But I think I should turn off my light Dear Grace It’s June 1944, soon we’ll be riding to the shore Of a beach somewhere off the coast of France We’ll be gliding on waves and the hours turn to days And the mist will put us all in a trance Don’t be too concerned, the tide's starting to turn At least that’s what the general says I want to apologize, I can’t write as much as I’d like But we’ve all gotta sacrifice I guess Dear Grace I think it’s 1945, if you’re reading this it’s likely I’m not alive I’m giving this to Private Thomas anyway Our plane was shot down over an obscure German town They dragged us from the wreckage and flames Tom and I agreed if one of us should flee We’d bring a letter home to lessen the pain But right now I’m looking at the sky, the rain’s starting to dry And it’s turning into a beautiful day
4.
spacing all the time spiraling in all the wrong things I could say facing a wildfire all I really knew was that I had to get away but when I wake up in the morning and the sun peers through the blinds things just seem different when I’m down here the truth will set you free but it’ll punch you in the eyes for the first time in my life I’m seeing clear panic passes fast “just like starting over” someone once told me I’m standing but I gotta ask Am I the only guy who’s a character in his own story? cuz when I wake up in the morning and the sun peers through the blinds things just seem different when I’m down here the truth will set you free but it’ll punch you in the eyes for the first time in my life I’m seeing clear I feel strangely optimistic Something I haven’t been before Now I’ve got the means To sweep my past up from the floor And use it as a ladder to the door and when I wake up in the morning and the sun peers through the blinds things just seem different when I’m down here the truth will set you free but it’ll punch you in the eyes for the first time in my life I’m seeing clear
5.
You were a lighthouse in the dark To help me through my teenage years It’s a shame I kept your name in a silver frame Like some lucky souvenir And at night I’d dream about you And all the fortune that you’d bring In my ignorant mind I thought I might dine With the queens and kings But high up in the clouds When I finally saw the top Something just seemed a little off… Cuz I came looking for answers While you looked out for yourself and When I asked you my questions You said be someone else Now I know the truth about you And no, you’re not that hard to see right through You’re proud of being “cutting edge” But you’re a step behind the game So focused on your relevance You forgot my fucking name And you pitched us to the ditch Once we’d outlived our use At least you gave us thread and rope To tie our own noose And high up in the clouds Is not that high at all And the lighthouse is only two feet tall Cuz I came looking for answers While you looked out for yourself and When I asked you my questions You said be someone else Now I know the truth about you And no, you’re not that hard to see right through
6.
Sam took a look at his drawing His artwork was nearly complete There was a king, in a shiny chariot, Composing a restless and impulsive tweet There were few who remained in the crowd As the party marched on parade And the crowd gave a bored salute to The royal family of the United States "In aisle one you can learn to start smoking Aisle two’s got the ways you can quit And the drugs are laced with all the murders They don’t have the guts to commit" This one was Bella’s story Wise beyond her years at any rate Points a small but angry finger At the royal family of the United States These worlds these children create Will go unheard, unread, and unseen Art, of course, isn’t important That’s what the senators agreed And Sam and Bella need to learn Just to follow where the path leads I don’t mean to sound pessimistic I don’t mean to preach or to condescend But if I’m some hazy cynic to you That’s the pot calling the weed green, my friend Cuz we all look away, so we’re all to blame As young artists are all laid to waste In caskets that were paid for By the royal family of the United States
7.
Sitting in an armchair by an empty fireplace, while Rain races down the windowpane The fog hangs low inside your mind Losing time You’re trying to remember while I’m trying to forget Ten seconds pass you ask again It’s easy to become annoyed Losing joy Ooooh I know you’re not to blame When you don’t remember my name You’re telling me a story but I’ve heard it all before About how things were before the war I recite the lines inside my head While they’re said When films and books and dreams become reality I think it’s no use to disagree I’ve learned to force a laugh on cue Just for you Ooooh I know you’re not to blame When you don’t remember my name Maybe I should’ve called more Before the door to your mind closed shut My gut stings with regret I watch the sun set On all the things that you forget Looking forward to the time that we have left I’m looking at my father’s eyes as he looks right at you Wishing he’ll never wear those shoes Afraid of knowing what’s to come Playing dumb Pictures from the past hang fading on the wall London in spring, Rome in the fall They’ll remind us of the times we spent In the end Ooooh I know you’re not to blame When you don’t remember my name
8.
It’s getting to that time of year When the songs that you sang are all I can hear And the strength that I’ve gained is starting to fade And crack like a bowl made of old paint and clay Just when I thought I saw the end Of my lost weekend
9.
There were cat-men, bird-men Pink and blue absurd men Dancing on the floor that night Nothing much has changed, I thought The cliques were not too hard to spot So I turned around Down the hallway running Eyeliner smeared across their faces I stood in shock as they rushed back to their places Basking in the haze of their glory days I couldn’t tear my eyes away I think I’ll wait right here till it’s over Maudlin Masquerade "Where’s the time gone?" chimed John To over-served wine moms The drinks had started getting to him The preppy and the popular and the pill-poppin’ pornographer I always felt better on the outside anyway And over in the corner, Mikey and Val were making up again To my horror, it was the same as it’s always been Basking in the haze of their glory days I couldn’t tear my eyes away I think I’ll wait right here till it’s over Maudlin Masquerade Basking in the haze of their glory days I couldn’t tear my eyes away I think I’ll wait right here till it’s over Maudlin Masquerade Dancing in the rays of their golden days There wasn’t nothin’ I could say I think I’ll wait right here till it’s over Maudlin Masquerade
10.
Wednesday morning took a walk around the block Eighty one degrees never felt colder All these years I’ve practiced saying goodbye But all I’m really better at is getting older But my love is just another kind of darkness you’ve been thinking of And sorry it’s not the one you wanted anymore And what good is me just standing here reminding you there’s no need to fear It’s only been ten years after all I’ve gotten used to spitting fire from my pen But now it seems the words have left my page What good can writing do if you’re dying too And I’m not there to see you when you change But my love is just another kind of darkness you’ve been thinking of And sorry it’s not the one you wanted anymore And what good is me just standing here reminding you there’s no need to fear It’s only been ten years after all It’s hard to see the point I create to fill the void And I can’t be happy on my own So I could write to just distract But that won’t bring you back From the place you’ve gone where no one else can go Let it go But my love is just another kind of darkness you’ve been thinking of And sorry it’s not the one you wanted anymore And what good is me just standing here reminding you there’s no need to fear It’s only been ten years after all

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This album was put together as I was graduating Berklee. It was my first full-length album, and encapsulated the many styles and genres of music I was writing while at school.

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released May 9, 2019

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Luke Frees Chicago, Illinois

I'm a songwriter, multi-instrumentalist, performer, and producer living in Chicago. My songs are melodic and have a strong emphasis on narratives, with lyrics that often tell a story.

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